KUALA LUMPUR, Oct 11 — Out of the limelight since making bail for their mock “Ramadhan” video, sex bloggers Alvin Tan and Vivian Lee have resurfaced with a morbid video that ends on a suicidal note.
Titled “Regret”, the two-minute video is described as a short film “that chronicles the personal reflections of Vivian at this point of her life journey.”
Accompanied by a melancholic tune played on a piano, a voiceover by Lee speaks of going against the advice she was given as an adult, due in part to her being “idealistic”
“I spoke out too often and too loudly that everyone even started to feel proud of hating me,” she said.
Lee goes on to lament how following her heart has led to her being told she was “wrong, bad, and worthless”.
“Even my loved ones refused to love me anymore, all because I challenged their idea of an ideal me”.
From there, the video quickly becomes darker and Lee begins to speak of being “tired”, of having “lost”, and “giving up to listening to her inner voice”.
“Perhaps it’s time to end my meaningless struggle once and for all.”
She is then shown picking up a kitchen knife before positioning it over her right wrist. Lee then appears to pull the knife across before the scene fades suddenly to black.
It is unclear if the video is a dramatisation or a statement of sorts from either Lee or Tan, who is listed as the writer and director.
Also unclear is whether the clip is related to the duo’s legal troubles over their mock “Ramadhan” greeting in August in which they touted a pork dish as a good way to break the Muslim fast.
The duo achieved notoriety in 2012 when they hosted a blog, “Sumptuous Erotica”, in which they catalogued their sexual exploits in a series of photographs and videos.
They had then largely escaped punishment despite calls for them to be charged with anti-pornography laws, although Tan lost his scholarship at the National University of Singapore as a result.
But the subsequent controversy with the “Ramadhan” greeting saw authorities throwing the book at them, charging them under Section 298A for causing disharmony, under the Sedition Act and the Film Censorship Act over their previous sex videos.
Their case is due for hearing in the Sessions Court here in December.